I know, it destroyed my marriage of 25 years!When I first realized my husband was choosing pornography over me, I thought I could win him back by becoming more attractive. It became a competition. When I learned to stop competing with it, and return to being myself, happiness and self love returned to my life. I now find myself in a life that I only thought would be mine if I died and went to heaven. I feel so much love around me. Only when I learned to accept and love myself did I realize that I could be happy in this life and not have to wait. Because I've kept a journal most of my life, including the decades I struggled with my desire to lure my first husband back into our marriage, I have hundreds of journal entries to sift though and draw from. Some are ugly, some are enlightening; all are important. This editing process and review of the life I left behind for a happy one is taking time. I am thankful for your support and encouragement. I know I am not alone and I know I have a mission to be of help to others through this journey. My book is in the rough draft form, I need to complete it.
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
I'm writing a book about the painful journey from competing with pornography to accepting I couldn't beat it. There is a point in this journey that I began to find myself again. Pornography addiction will destroy a person's happiness, a marriage and relationships if one allows it to.
Friday, September 6, 2013
Few things are as rewarding as growing your own food. I realize that my part is small in comparrison to the creator who made the earth possible for us to plant in and harvest from. Feelings of awe and gratitude fill my soul as I participate in the bounty..